3rd Visit with my Lyme Doc

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

I am a few days late, but I spoke with my Lyme doctor on the phone, Friday, the 24th, for our 3rd visit. We spoke for close to an hour. She decided that the treatment plan I initially started with (3 weeks on antibiotics, 1 off, 3 weeks on), was too much for me. She said my body is overwhelmed and is not 'dying off' nor detoxing well; that it was just too much for my body to handle. The muscle weakness has gotten worse, the brain fog is Horrible!, I have a hard time being around people because it is hard to express myself through words, & I am super sensitive to sound, light, and heat, which is also making it difficult to be around people & go about my day. So, I have just been in the house with my precious son, taking it one day at a time.

My doctor made some adjustments to my treatment plan. I will still be on the same antibiotics and same doses, but I am currently taking 2 weeks off of antibiotics, then in 2 weeks, on March 12th, I will take them for 2 weeks, then be off 2 more---so in 6 weeks, I will speak with my doctor again, hoping to tell her I am doing a little better. :~)

I Really hope this helps, because she said with her having her own clinic and it just being her, she can only handle simple cases; that if I do not get better the way she hopes, she will not be able to handle my case, & that I may have to go to Dr. Jemsek in Washington D.C.  I hope it does not get to that point; for one, I want to get better, but also it would be hard to travel to him, physically, mentally, & financially.

So, I hope & pray spreading the antibiotics out & giving my body more of a break will help me. Even if it takes longer to get better this way, I am okay with that, because it is important I am able to daily cope with it better; if not, my body will not heal itself.

That's where I'm at right now...still taking it one day at a time. God is gently teaching me to submit to the way things are right now, & be okay with the fact that I indeed do have to take it one day at a time. This is hard to go through; physically, mentally, & emotionally it is taking a toll on my whole entire body, but as I wake up each day, I need to choose to live that given day to its fullest & choose to have a positive attitude; that is what I am daily striving to do, & through it, I hope & pray that God uses me, ultimately that He would receive All the Glory! :~)


"You won't become the person you were created to be if you do not spend time with the One who created you." 

A Sweet Kiss on the Cheek from God

...I can't do much right now, but as I took Coby out to go potty, I looked up at the beautiful baby blue sky with a few thin, beautiful clouds--I thought, wow!, God, Your Creation is So beautiful!---after thinking this for a Brief moment, a huge eagle flew gently, right over our house, in perfect view where I could see him...it was like a sweet kiss on the cheek from God, reminding me of Isaiah 40: 28-31...

"28 Have you not known? Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He does not faint or grow weary;
his understanding is unsearchable.
29 He gives power to the faint,
and to him who has no might he increases strength.
30 Even youths shall faint and be weary,
and young men shall fall exhausted;
31 but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with wings like eagles;
they shall run and not be weary;
they shall walk and not faint."

God is So amazing!, this was such a refreshing moment b/c I feel Horrible today from dealing with Lyme--I do hope my current circumstances are temporary, but right now I do not know that for sure, but will drive myself Crazy if I continue to dwell on the "what if's" or wondering what the next few weeks/months are going to look like for me physically, mentally, & emotionally...

....I don't know, so all I can do is live for today & hold on to the promises of God, from His Word, particularly this passage as He gently reminded me today & trust in Him; the God who created the universe---to Him, healing me is a piece of cake; why do I have such little faith?, on the surface I believe He can heal me, but deep down, do I Truly believe?......

"Thank you Jesus, for reminding me today that my current circumstances are not about me, but ALL about You!, I can't do that much physically & mentally right now, & in my flesh, it is Extremely difficult!, & mentally it is So hard to focus right now, I am So sensitive to sound, but Lord, quiet everything around me, please intervene & if I can't focus on anything else but You, make that happen Lord; to focus on You; Your Power, Your Sovereignty, Your Grace, Your Sufficiency....to focus on the Cross, & to focus on vs. 31; as I wait for your return Jesus, use me, renew my strength, daily Lord.....be my strength....."



(this is the last week of my 2nd round of antibiotics....2 rounds down, around 8 or 9, at least, to go....)

My 2nd Week of my 2nd Round of Lyme Treatment

So, it's my 2nd week of my 2nd 'round' of Lyme treatment. Overall, I am doing okay, but I do struggle daily. My body feels as if I have the flu but times ten; it's Extremely weak!, & the worst part right now is the brain fog--it is Horrible!!, it's very difficult to be around people because I have an extremely Hard time focusing on what they tell me & as I talk, I often lose my track of thought--it goes completely blank as if my brain freezes, & I also am Very forgetful lately; overall it's just like my head is Extremely foggy & heavy--hard to describe--but I strive daily to push through & make the most of everyday. :)

This is going to be a long journey, Lyme will always be in the background, for the rest of my life, so I have to choose to take it one day at a time, daily striving to choose to have a positive outlook on life, even though it is hard many days, in my present circumstances, but is definitely possible as I daily turn to God to be my strength. (Phil 4:10-13)

I am not feeling well today, so could not post much; celebrating Valentine's Day yesterday, wore me out--so I just have to take it one day at a time: do things if I can, if not then I have to rest.....But I do want to post the lyrics of this song& a link to it; God has encouraged me so much through this song!, especially the first verse; the words just say it all--I praise Him that He does hold my every moment, He is Sovereign & is in control, my faith is in Him every step of the way; He is my Healer!! :)

"Healer" by Kari Jobe
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yzejd6r9DwE&feature=related

VERSE:
You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
and heal all my disease

PRE-CHORUS:
I trust in You
I trust in You

CHORUS:
I believe You're my healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe
I believe You're my portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus, You're all I need

VERSE:
You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
and heal all my disease

PRE-CHORUS:
I trust in You
Lord, I trust in You

CHORUS:
I believe You're my healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe
I believe You're my portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus, You're all I need

BRIDGE:
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands

CHORUS:
I believe You're my healer
I believe You are all I need
Oh yes You are, yes You are
I believe You're my portion
Lord, I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need
More than enough for me,
Jesus You're all I need
More than enough for me,
Jesus You're all I need

ENDING:
You're my Healer, my Healer

Hello Infrared Sauna...Bye Bye Toxins

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Wow!, my experience today in an infrared sauna for the first time was amazing!!, It was So relaxing & So rejuvenating!! I wanted to take it home with me :)

I have been told and am learning that taking the antibiotics are only half of what it is going to take for me to get better. The antibiotics kill the bacteria in my body, but those toxins have to come out of my body to get better. One of the best ways is through sweating. My body is Too weak to work out & break a sweat, so being in an infrared sauna is one of the best ways to remove toxins, in my opinion.

It would be So awesome to be able to get in it everyday; it would probably make me feel so much better & possibly be able to heal quicker. I told my hubby that if we got one, it could be my birthday, anniversary, & Christmas present for the next 2 years or more! :~) I actually have seen a few on Craigslist--going to look more into it!.....This pic was how refreshed I looked afterward....Ahhhhh :)

So, today is a cloudy day---looking forward to eating breakfast for supper and relaxing with my awesome hubby & adorable son! :)

Monday, I start my second 3-week round of antibiotics, so we will see how it goes. I am a little nervous, but just taking it one day at a time. 

The first 2 weeks were not too bad, but these past 2 weeks have been Ra-ough!, my body has been Extremely weak & it feels like Jello--it's like I am a car on "E", my body just won't go many days---the bad days are definitely outweighing the good days----

BUT, I am daily Striving to not let it get me down, with the help of my Encouraging husband!, God is Sovereign; He is my Creator, He knew every detail of me before I was even conceived (Psalm 139). He knew long before I ever knew, that I would experience this, in this season of my life. As I go through this, I want to strive to daily remind myself of this profound truth & to daily try to look at the big picture; this life is So temporary, I need to make the most of everyday, even if I am at home & have to lay down most of the time; I can still praise God through it!, As I rest I can be still before Him (Psalm 46:10), praise Him through music, and pray without ceasing for my loved ones. 

In addition, I can praise Him in how we raise Bailey; in how my time is with Bailey during the day before DaDa gets home. God has utterly amazed me with the child he has so graciously blessed us with. Bailey is so easy-going, gentle, patient, and is So helpful. He is my little sidekick :~) He keeps me company during this time and I thank Jesus for that!, Right now I am not able to run around with him or take him for a walk and do things with him that take more energy, but I Can do the smaller things, and I need to be ok with that....Bailey is :~)